Sometimes I just don't know what to do anymore.

Feelings have become so confusing and I don't know which way is up or down. Sometimes friendship can become more and sometimes the feelings aren't mutual. Well I don't have the power to change his opinion and the cards were never dealt out in my favor, all I want to do is just be happy. And find someone that I can care for as much as I do for him at this very moment. I don't want to replace him just find something that I can share with someone else.

Someone that is equally special to me or more. When I write stuff like this sometimes I feel as though I am trying to put the blame souly on him, and trust me I'm not. I just can't let go and it sucks to feel this way. I don't even know anymore whether I like him or just really care about him or what. Maybe its the fact that I've never felt like this about anyone so I don't know how to describe it or what category it should fall under...

All I know is that I need to find mr.right soon..I've stopped looking so its time for him to come to me now..